Not enough

How come my Christmas bonus is never as much as I hope it is? How come when all the taxes have come off, I am left with nothing but a few hundred euro more than my regular salary? Bugger. Maybe I have a vision that I make more money than I actually do? Donno.

I am SO tired. I am SO done with the place I work. My mind is already gone and I am more and more wondering why I don't just leave now? What exactly is stopping me?